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Lately I’ve been thinking about narrative, particularly the
stories we tell ourselves to make sense of our own lives. I’ve started thinking about
narrative as a sort of third level of reality – and in fact, the level of
reality in which we truly engage the world as "real."
Very quickly the first 2 levels of reality being 1) that metaphysical
reality that exists beyond our perceptions or knowledge – we know (presume)
such a reality must exist but only can talk about it in the most generalized
(and unsubstantiated) ways. Perhaps the world of Mathematics occupy this space.
2) The phenomenological reality, that reality we experience and know directly through our senses. We understand the phenomenological space has some inherent flaws (e.g. optical illusions, bad science)
but it is a world that we can begin to discover and know more about - or at least make some
accurate predictions.
Narrative though, seems to be to be a necessary next layer.
Narrative provides reason to act, it sorts through our perceptions, identifies objects, concepts, and intentions, and places them into categories: good, bad, table, chair, friend, foe, etc. Without
narrative there would be no reason to move beyond our perceptions. There are no threats or problems to solve, without narrative even the passage of time may be absent. Perhaps this is the realm meditation delivers, pure
perception without our internal dialogue deconstructing it into its parts, rather
leaving it a whole “one” of the now. The future and past only come into meaningful existence by virtue of narrative.
Since I’ve started thought experiment a few things have
fallen in place for me. I’ve always been sympathetic to the existentialist view that
our lives are aesthetic projects – viewing them now as narrative, and exploring their narrative
structure provides a new lens to examine one's life. We are the heroes of our own journeys; we engage in our quests, as we look for
problems that we can solve. We hope for happy endings, that our story arc shows how we've grown and become better - or that we've vanquished our enemies.
The thing about narratives though, is that they are almost always fiction. That’s where things get both troublesome and interesting. As much as we’d like to believe our stories as true, they seldom are. Our
memories are often demonstrably false, and our futures seldom turn out as
expected. We survive through the shorthand of stories, the generalizations of
what is good and bad, the filters of our prejudice, our retroactive justifications for our acts, and the nonexistent problems we try to solve.
Maslow’s hierarchy of needs provide a menu of problems to be solved, the bottom tiers, physiology and safety clearly articulate our need for food and shelter, the basic problem of survival. But as we climb the pyramid – to self-actualization – is that really a
problem that can be solved? Is inauthenticity real? Or is it a problem of our restlessness, a need to resolve the inconsistent stories about ourselves? Philosophers condemn the unexamined life, but isn't that too is a
fiction?
Of course there is science; if the scientific method does not reveal truth, it at least takes us to some place of verisimilitude. At the very least science offers an ability to make reliable predictions based on presumed cause and effect. Science however, is also told in stories. Occam’s razor is evoked giving preference to the "simpler" explanation as "true." A theory prevails until it meets a case it
cannot properly describe. There are always
outliers, and we have to decide if it’s the science or the experiment that is
bad. Our stories carry a bias that make us cling to our preexisting beliefs – In our recollections they have lead to previous successes, so clearly they are true(er).
This leads me to thinking of narrative in our political
differences. The more complex things become, the more we have to place our
trust in others, for doing the proper science, investigation, or fact checking.
Who we trust is then also colored by who the heroes and villains are in our stories.
We are forced to make a leap of faith in deciding what story we tell, to
justify our past actions, and plan our future actions. As sides become
polarized the stories clash. Even when we agree on the facts, their meanings
are subject to the interpretations of our stories.
In a way this is just a restatement of existentialism. Life
has no objective meaning so we are forced to create one. Viewing this from the
lens of narrative though reveals the dilemma
of competing narratives, but also provides a different way of thinking about
living an authentic life as telling a good story.